I know that rationally, this makes no sense. Yet it is my truth, this simultaneous existence in many worlds, across many planes of time. I seek to appreciate the present, to experience the now; and I really think I do. I am in love with my reality, with every moment of my life that I can fill with meaning. But it is so fleeting, this bridge between reminiscing and dreaming. And so often, I find myself dancing back and forth across that bridge, not sure which side I want to land on.
And so by some strange, twisted path of fate, I arrived here. My somewhere. And it is better than I ever could have imagined.
Of all the questions I was asked during my fellowship and since returning, those which procure the most emotion are in regards to relationships. The old ones, the new ones; those that thrived, and the few that crumbled.
In many ways, the end of this fellowship was the end of the unknown.
But I was surprised. Life will not be that way for me after all.
My heart swells with emotion realizing that I was given that opportunity I sought, and it was everything I dreamed of and more. Few words can articulate just what these 243 days meant to more, and few pictures can portray the complexities of 35 weeks of global exploration. But in as many coherent sentences as I can manage, here is what I've lost, gained, and learned.